I’m a little late on New Year’s Resolutions… But I’m going to renew my determination in doing my devotions consistently. I have a new game plan (once again). I’ve downloaded the NLT onto my palm and I’m going to TRY to do my devos on the crowded metro. I know, it’s not the most comfortable or beneficial place to do them, but it’s better than not doing them, right? At the same time, let this be my disclaimer… These posts will be very raw. Heck, they might not even be completed. They will be full of holes… I’m not claiming to know everything about the Bible. I’m merely reading it. In fact, if you see anything wrong with my interpretations, I encourage you to let me know via a comment. Or if you don’t feel like making me feel like an idiot in public, you can always email me.
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I’m full of complaints. I hated my old job. I’m scared of my new job. I don’t like waking up to do my devos in the morning. I refuse to do them at night because I feel like it loses its effectiveness. I hate driving. I hate taking public transportation. I want my girlfriend to be less attached, then I want her to depend on me. I want to be happy, but then I enjoy being my sad emo self. I’m such a hypocrite that I actually fit the stereotypical description of a “Christian” very well.
Oftentimes, I find that I have no idea which direction my life is going. I just go where it takes me. Reflecting on my year… Everything’s different. New pastor. New girlfriend. New job. So much as changed that it’s so easy to lose myself, my identity. Who am I? Where do I fit in? Where am I going?
